sa diin ka connected?

i often hear this question and at that instant my brain processes a gazillion times and then stalls.. stalling like your memory-deprived computers!whahahaha sa diin gd man? and how could i say my complexity in a simple one sentence blow? truly, im disillusioned. “ano gd man ako?” is a thing i’m having a problem of answering. i know “purist” will always hate me coz i just bump and stuck out my middle finger “gta-style!” (for non gamers its grand theft auto..the violently controversial pc-game used as a metaphor..hehehe

a. for some part im an “artist” with a following and high-valued, high turnover commisioned works (@130,000 on my second month) for doing something which could angrily nerve-wrack computer freaks and traditional artists!whahahaha what a statement. perhaps that’s how i really feel and that’s how i read them. these people will always look at my things with eye-piercing guilt. a guilt that they should have done this if they were without inhibitions earlier in life! its a question of what is and what was supposed to be done. (details will be posted on my future blog entries)

b. for some part im a “hacker” with 2 televised on prime time major attacks. only people who see this things will believe on this. but i stopped. thanks to crystal. pero traditional computer experts will again hate me for doing something without really knowing its technicalities and just using common sense and getting popular..hehehe (details will be posted on my future blog entries)

c. for some part im a “businessperson” with 20 or more people earning directly or indirectly a compensation for the work rendered. but “purist” in a business sense will always hate my ways in which i just show how to better do things and how to do things most people thought not doable without getting the most out of it. not even for a large amount of money. its just to perform a “statement” to the wide theater of real life! (details will be posted on my future blog entries)

d. for some part im a “feeling intellectual” being awarded by abs-cbn a toys award, winning a rotary sponsored regional academic contest, having a 99th percentile entrance exam in UP in math but not using it on the classroom is a pill hard to bite for most people.

e. for some part im a “gamer”. joining and winning some of the pc gaming competitions with monickers like “quicksilver”, “zerc_off” and the likes. and hacking my way thru winning unfairly sometimes.hehehe

f. for some part im a “chess lover”. i havent ate for hours just thinking of the board during highschool. i dreamed of living a chess life when i was younger and got a lot of offers from universities as a varisty chess player. but my coach hates me. to date i remain the only player in an integrated meet match to purposely draw a rook-up game by placing it in front of 3-pawns so that i would only tie for 1st and drop my coach on the process..hehehehe i’m the only player playing on the regional meet with a deciding game against negros occidental with a walkman on! coz its just cool to do!hehehehe chess purists will always hate me..hehehe infact, will throw the table anytime when i play..hehehe

g. for some cases, i feel like a “mind-controller”. having attributed such from our ultra-secret “psychological chess” training in HS..hehehe people will hate me because im never fair with always assymetric information on the favorable side even in love.. my gf once cried for using the phreak-tool to listen in on phone conversations..hehehe

h. for some part i’m a “feeling inventor” not being able to fail in doing a thing where we don’t have any background. i feel specially challenged when people don’t believe that it is doable..hehehe like this cellphone bluetooth control of a powerpoint presentation on our MA to enable danicing on the floor on reports is near completion..hehehe when my parents say nga “ano naman na nga binuang toto ang ginapaubra mo sa tinawo mo”.. i laugh deep inside..hehehe

i. sometime i feel like a “good leader”. in which my team will jump to any challenge and war to support me even on the weirdest of idea. i know that they are esteemed when we do something new..hehehe i don’t even cross-check their records and they alone will auto-correct when someone on the team is astray or will auto-eject such..hehehe i even pay things on a blank check with my signature on and the amount and “pay-to” spaces left blank when i entrust it to them and nothing goes wrong..hehehe

j. i feel like a “shifter” in a sense that i will appear very differently and on far planes to people. i appear as the “pinkasabad nga tawo nga nakilala nila to some people” and a mear snob and introvert to some..hehehe this is perfectly useful in a micro-business environment.

so to answer “diin ka connected?” is such a dillema since most people expect an answer like “i have a water, gaming, vending, arts, satellite tv business” where i just consider being a business person as one part of myself. so to simplify i would like to answer “im your untypical kid which could not fit in in boxes of connections..”hehehe

biological time clock in life

I think Age is one of the prime influencers of my thoughts.  I have a strong desire to be above and well over what people expect for kids of my age.  This is the reason why i get doubly pressured to come up with a working “wow” idea on June which i started developing first quarters of the respective years.  So by the time of august construction requirements are done and before my september 7 birthday it is already up!This week is such a shocker!  Malapit na yung time na di ko na kakayanin eto lahat.  i need a wife!  joke..hehehe We opened on sept 1, 2006 in sm city iloilo.  One of the first few visitors was Sec. Boboy Syjuco of TESDA.  he wants to order 300 framed mosaics to be given as gifts to his friends and family.  we need to finish it before end of november.  just in time for christmas.  i think we couldn’t fill the order because our capacity for our signature hand-made 2 inches thick by 6 inches wide cross-section of wood which is bound without nails is just 1 a day.  our works cost a minimum of 8,000 per frame.

He ofcourse expects a lower price for an economies of scale in the order.  But like the SONY chairman example when he was ordered a lot of walkmans.  Instead of decreasing the price, he increased it because he would need to make new infrastructure improvements to fill in the order.  In our case, we need skilled artisans of wood.  kung pipilitin namin, sigurado quality would be an issue.

Hans Sy is also very interested with our works.  he instructed as a top management of SM Malls that offer sheets for different SM Malls be sent here to iloilo.  He have received faxed offers from SM Mall of Asia, SM  Manila, SM Cagayan De Oro, SM San Lanzaro and other have started calling on my phone for details!  Paano ko to magagawa?  i have a great idea on paper.  Walang provider nang this quality of frames, specialty printing, art photography and digital arts inside sm malls to provide for A-type clients.  Pero we don’t have the capacity.  I started inquiring about subcontracting pero quality is always an issue with a loss of control on the productions system.

I was planning to do all of these after finishing grad school in UP.  i was planning to place all my business segments in all sm malls.  But it came early to a point that i’m now considering dropping the grad school thing and the saturday formal photo schooling.

it’s kind of ironic where there are very small orders at present but the smile of common people seeing our works and spending 10-15 minutes at different vantage points to observe our thing is such a heart-warming experience.  I even said to our people na kahit tabla lang tayo dito ok na.  mabubuhay naman tayo nang iba nating projects.  But i also feel that its about to erupt in proportions we can not handle.  that’s my fear!  an idea so good that we can only watch self destruct with orders we can’t fill.  I can’t also prepare people for the computer graphics part, people for the woods part, people for the sales part ahead of the requirement because we can’t be really sure or can accurately project something that was not even done anywhere.

quite funny.  but the wonders that i push myself to be over my age brings a smile when i and my people look in the eyes in enourmous amazement.  we are questioning ourselves “ano na ni ginapang-ubra ta man?”.  Being 25 tommorow will bring in new preparations to prepare higher level projects before i’ll be 26 on september 7, 2007!

thank you lord!

alzheimer amusement

i’m writing to amuse myself when alzheimer comes.  my grandfather has it, my father shows signs of development..and i guess i have the early signs of most probably having it also!

imagine having coffee with my grandfather for his 5th of the morning!  he asks being served his 5th for i was having coffee and he (as he thinks) never had one for the morning.  my father on the other hand sometimes turns on the wrong directions during driving and then when we laugh boisterously about it, he gets really mad but laughs after.

i myself easily forgets personal events and just asks my girlfriend (whom i digress everynight on the phone about my day) about what she remembers of what i told her about such events of my life say 5 months ago!

perhaps in my case, its a blessing at this point of life!  i could easily fend off any heart-screaming occurrences for the simple reason that “I CANT REMEMBER”.whahaha i could as i notice focus my attention and brain-power (what a strong phrase) on a project that i am learning because less of my memory is being used to store past experiences.  So in computer lingo, i may have a DDR memory..”a double dynamic random access memory”.  It’s very fast on storing and processing something because it is as fast in deleting those passed infos unlike a cached system memory on a fixed hard drive!