hopelessness and dreams

today the most moving thought that came to me was people and friends talking about life outside the philippines.  state university faculty wanting to work as network engineers in UN-afghanistan forces.  people saying that 15,000 pesos is not enough if you have a wife more so 20,000 pesos if you have kids.  people saying that its for their families and their future.  people that are hopeless that philippines would change!

dreamers that want a dream wedding would also consider getting outside the philippines.  as i look at people’s faces now stories and feelings are being felt.  specially on the children’s eyes that frequent my new internet cafe.  parents leaving them here as though this was a day-care center and paying our hourly rates.  the young innocence of this kids struck me.  they are without inhibitions!  they are not worried about future events or even on comparing their stature to other kids as most adults do.

i wanted to photograph this beautiful young kid now that im looking intently typing on characters while seating on the wicker seat.  how i wished that people would think of life as very simple and not complicate it more as in this young kid’s eyes.  how i wish that leaders of this country wouldn’t create artificial problems to deviate topics.  how i wish that this kid lovingly stroking her 3-year old sister would be an obelisk for us to be hopeful of our dreams.

im again connecting unrelated thoughts i see today.

inhibitions and blogging

its been a while since my last post.

i was having a personal moratorium on not touching a PC the past year which affected the earning performance of my internet cafes.  i was with a lot of inhibitions and i was wanting that the old me would come back.  a person who would think less about what others would think and feel.

being with inhibitions made me dream less.  how i wish i continued to think like a child which i could gauge on how i make artworks.

i often correct my drawings now when i was making it an experience before.  i was leaving imperfections behind to amaze myself that it was a stroke i did not think about.  that the artwork asked for it and it was destined to be there.  how i wish all the inhibitions i have now would perish.

im considering making an inhibition-less photo a day blog.hehe

kite season

it’s summer on an april fool’s yesterday!

a season for playing, enjoying and bein carefree like crazy.  playing with kites reminiscing my childhood days inside the training camp in silang cavite (formerly pc tracom) was a heartwarming thought.  it is so nice to watch a thing you labored and designed intricately with visuals and specially sound (i forgot the humming thing nene screetched off on the bamboo strips on the rear of the kite to force a humming sound on the gliding wind) fly high that you could hardly see the intricacy!

one of our team member, lorenzo “nene” juarez is a master craftsman of competition kites.  it’s not a competition for aesthetics but a competition for kite wars!  cut off the competiting kite’s lines with your line and the power of a 1-2 meter wide kite handled by two adult people atleast.  he is popular on this and people come to their home to be built one.

i was reflecting that i should also change seasons now.  i should be a kite!  i should learn to fly.  i should learn to stop crafting the aesthetics of my laurels by flying high and let go so  that it could be hardly seen.  by flying high, instead of observer’s seeing me i see the vast emptiness of the lord’s plan for me.  vast emptiness for growth.  for seeing beyond my fields and shores.  for seeing life in a brand new light, from a kite’s eye view!  for never worrying that my life will be cutted of by wind pressure the more i fly high!  the more i let go, the more i’ll lose control but i’ll be more near the sky as most of the intricately designed kites wants too.

im complicating my life as iva said.  im adding more designs to the kite that adds weight for flying since i still feel that i can but common sense dictates to fly light with only the necessary things.  i have a light and strong line for control that im so lucky to have as she said that i don’t know it (perhaps what she meant was appreciate.hehehe)!