life in high definition

i was shocked at how i see things after this break-up.

literally, my senses seemed to be in high defintion audio and video.  colors became more vivid and i seem to see peoples faces on a different light today.  it seemed that my ear is now hearing in wider frequencies and i seem to hum in more interesting tunes!  people’s faces seem to talk.  their eyes seemed to be brighter yet sincere.

my open talk with my new friend who’s name is crystal seemed to be more enjoying!  im even joking her, “pangaluyagan ta ka liwat. hindi mo lang ko pagsabton dayon!”.  its nice that there is no bad feelings between us both.  i understood her work more and i appreciate the sms she does when she cant answer my calls  now.

i know we both need this situation at this time.  we need new perspectives in life and im getting older i needed to mature a little.

i watched “ploning” yesterday.  the cinematography and shadows are great.  i was considering to purchase the nikon d40 dslr yesterday to compliment my new found sensibilities.  yet i don’t have time now.

doing the requested 20ft x 30ft centerpiece artwork now for our church would be in perfect timing with my emotion state and sensibilities.  i know today would be the best time to start on with it artistically, with my last moments in being single.

what the heck!  i dont even have a girlfriend now and im talking about the last moments of being single.

but i know better days are coming.  its like im paul after being blinded and falling off the horse!

laughs.

hopelessness and dreams

today the most moving thought that came to me was people and friends talking about life outside the philippines.  state university faculty wanting to work as network engineers in UN-afghanistan forces.  people saying that 15,000 pesos is not enough if you have a wife more so 20,000 pesos if you have kids.  people saying that its for their families and their future.  people that are hopeless that philippines would change!

dreamers that want a dream wedding would also consider getting outside the philippines.  as i look at people’s faces now stories and feelings are being felt.  specially on the children’s eyes that frequent my new internet cafe.  parents leaving them here as though this was a day-care center and paying our hourly rates.  the young innocence of this kids struck me.  they are without inhibitions!  they are not worried about future events or even on comparing their stature to other kids as most adults do.

i wanted to photograph this beautiful young kid now that im looking intently typing on characters while seating on the wicker seat.  how i wished that people would think of life as very simple and not complicate it more as in this young kid’s eyes.  how i wish that leaders of this country wouldn’t create artificial problems to deviate topics.  how i wish that this kid lovingly stroking her 3-year old sister would be an obelisk for us to be hopeful of our dreams.

im again connecting unrelated thoughts i see today.

inhibitions and blogging

its been a while since my last post.

i was having a personal moratorium on not touching a PC the past year which affected the earning performance of my internet cafes.  i was with a lot of inhibitions and i was wanting that the old me would come back.  a person who would think less about what others would think and feel.

being with inhibitions made me dream less.  how i wish i continued to think like a child which i could gauge on how i make artworks.

i often correct my drawings now when i was making it an experience before.  i was leaving imperfections behind to amaze myself that it was a stroke i did not think about.  that the artwork asked for it and it was destined to be there.  how i wish all the inhibitions i have now would perish.

im considering making an inhibition-less photo a day blog.hehe